Starving for perfection, hating her reflection...

I am a 16 year old girl from England. I model and act. I have Anorexia Nervosa- Binge purge sub-type. I have this rather than Bulimia because I eat very little yet throw it up. I have had "issues" with food since I was about 10 years old, as a result of bullying. I began starving myself. This stopped about 2 years ago but it started again when I couldn't stand the weight I had put back on. I started again in January 2011. Start weight- 10 stone 2 (142 lbs). Current weight- 8 Stone 5 (117 lbs). My target weight atm is 7 stone 5 (106 lbs).

I decided to start this blog so I can connect with others like me. I feel so alone. My family and friends have never known about my "issues". Everyone thinks I'm perfect. Girls tell me how jealous they are and that they wish they were as "gorgeous as me" and tell me "you are just so perfect!" but they don't see.They don't see that underneath my plastered smile, made up face and good grades that I'm dying. I NEED to please them, my family. friends, teachers. I need everyone to know how perfect I am. How strong I am. But I need someone to know the real me too.
God bless you all and Stay Strong <3 Xo

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WOW O WOW, just found this picture online! Wish I looked like her&#8230; perfection :( not even fair. Girls like her give me the motivation to carry on. I WILL BE BEAUTIFUL AT THE END OF THIS. REBLOG OR LIKE IF YOU AGREE.

WOW O WOW, just found this picture online! Wish I looked like her… perfection :( not even fair. Girls like her give me the motivation to carry on. I WILL BE BEAUTIFUL AT THE END OF THIS. REBLOG OR LIKE IF YOU AGREE.

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this is just perf.

this is just perf.

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better-off-dead-bitch asked
Sorry about the answer on your blog, it kinda messed up..just to let you know, you can use some scar make up to cover it up and normal makeup can be used just aswell..but if they are really bad, they might be quite had to cover but it can always be made to look better with any scar make up, concealer ot normal foundation:3

Thank you so much :D it really helped xxxx

diary-of-a-cerial-depression asked
I know it sounds odd, but this always works for me!! First put foundation on it, then cut up a pair of skin tights, so they fit on your whole arm and then it shouldn't show up that you have put foundation on, and then when you put the tops on the tights should stay on around your shoulder so they wont fall down, all you need is to get a strip of cellotape to stick it too your wrist/start of your hand, so it doesn't roll up. Trust me it works if you do it right! Make sure the tights are stretched

I tried this and it worked really well! Thank u very much xxxx

writemyhistoryy asked
have anyone told you that you look like selena gomez? she is perfect just like you! btw i LOVE your blog

A few people yes haha:-) she’s much much prettier though, but thank you! And glad you like it sweetie x